musings...

It has been a while since I posted on LJ, It has been a pretty intense year and an even more intense last couple of months. For all the talk that I talked about leadership team building and responsibility, I really was speaking more from the perspective of a person who had been trained in these things... but didn't have an awful lot of hands-on knowledge.

That was then this is now.

A little backround: Basically the leadership it in our community here in Maui was a little wanting but because there really weren't that many people and there really weren't that many parties or classes it all sort of worked in a hodgepodge way.

What I was finding was that there were some personality clashes, some issues that needed to be resolved,and a need for an overall view of the community from a leadership perspective i.e. a vision for what Maui leather family could be.

I never really see myself as a person who is comfortable with the power to cultivate the garden of people but what I came to realize was that I didn't really like what happens when the garden is left unattended either. That sort of forced me into a position where I had to make some decisions.

The first decision that I made was to offer mentoring to one of the community leaders who was in need of some feedback for how his actions were affecting the community. I was so naïve! silly me I thought that he would say "thank you Ming" and graciously accept this opportunity for growth and that it would bond us closer as people and leaders of the community...

That is not at all what happened. He attacked me in a brutal way and stormed off. To my surprise the rest of the community did not follow, and we have been having some wonderfully fun parties and classes ever since.

Some highlights recently are: Cleo coming and teaching us some fantastic energy and spiritual techniques to use in the BDSM, and the bonding and  beautiful experience of high protocol dinners, and how it gave the community a chance to experience a different side of one another, and show off all the hard work that in MS or a DS dynamic takes to thrive

It seems as though I don't have the capacity to do both my business and my lifestyle activities in balance. It seems as though any time that I am really fired up about lifestyle stuff my work stuff loses interest to me,  and vice versa.

I am seeking a balance but right now I'm just so inspired by my community growth and exploration.

Yesterday I dropped out of my mastermind I'm not sure if this was a great idea but it felt is no I just wasn't giving it 100% and so therefore it would not be fair to all of the other team members who were. So is this where my journey of becoming a multi millionaire ends? I hope not, but I'm not sure where that passion is anymore.

I think i will start writing here again for two reasons; one I miss the internal dialogue, and two, I now have Dragon Naturally Speaking software and so I don't have to worry about my carpal tunnel any longer.

Wins

Hook pull with frineds.

New turtles looking awesome

Great talk with Kara

Nice time with kinky friend.

Healthy food choices

Good time off from my boy

Fun with dogs

Kidnapping scene went well

First nest:

Species: green Seaturtle 4 live, 76 hatched and 3 did not make it.

The ocean: a place of color and life, a whole world with amazing creatures, color and light....

Human Beings:  wonderful magical creatures, each with a story, passions, a different taste and texture not just the physical body, but the thoughts they think and how they think them

Animals: all animals a poem can be written about each one, but my dog Sapphire is the one I am thinking of as I write this, she is just pure love, and the whole of the universe can be seen in her eyes

Stars...can there be created something more beutiful to look at, that gives us such a sense of eternity and vastness ?

I could go on an on, sometimes I just lay and marvel at it all, but most times I dont, most times I forget, and get on my hamster wheel and run my little legs till they can go no more and then the wheel flips me over a few times before I am tossed out...

I think that is why in the hustle bustle of life, walking into a jewelry store, and looking at gemstones is so important, it is important that they are not priced like an apple that you have to save up for them that there is value in the hard work it took for them to come to you and there is value in the hard work it took for you to get them.

There is a reason that they are deep in the earth and they are hard to get to, there is a reason that they need to be cut an then polished to shine, there is a reason that they are put on tiny white leatherette pedestals so that they can be seen for what they truly are: Most people dont know this, but ancient cultures knew and I seem to be born remembering, plants heal the body, gemstones make the soul sparkle.

wins:

new account looking so promising

new girl trained and ready to go

michael was home this week got a lot done and enjoyed him too

jewelry stringer came on board who i really like

boxes done and will be shipped

display almost done

master mind team rocking

surfed a few times this week

beach clean up this saturday

yardsale stuff amassed and organised

laundry room looking good

looking for a new house so wish me luck!

wins of the week,

new girl working out well

i am stepping in to my role more as leader

good day at four seasons, and some hidden checks I did not know about

heart healing slowly

good surfing yesterday

deeper levels of organisation at the turtle factory

doing ok with keeping weight off

that last one is such a struggle, i am so frustrated, I would have thought that it would become easier, but it is a daily struggle, and i dont know when i am going to find balance with my body.,,,*sigh*

From The Secret Daily Teachings

If you have "needing money" in your vibration, then you will keep attracting needing money. You have to find a way of being happy NOW, feeling good NOW, and being in joy NOW, without the money, because those great feelings are how you will feel with the money.

I am a shaman, it is something I was trained in many years ago, and the work that I do is somewhat ethereal, and hard to explain....but Ill try:

I work with energys, I work intuitivly, and I used to work with humans, and had a practice not unlike a therapists practice, but I ultimately found this draining.

So I made a deal with my guides and the nations that I would do work for humans but only when sought me out, and only when my exact skills and gifts would perfectly match what they need from me...and that I would get a signal and this would be my hands heating up.

My hands heat up when I am needing to lay them on people who need healing, and only when they will ACCEPT healing from me.

This has happened once a year for the last five years.

And I was ok with this, my real love and passion is sea turtles and since so many healing folks are doing humans, and not so many doing sea turtles, I felt that I would use my healing hands to create art, that then touched peoples hearts and lives...and it does as I am sure Mimi can attest ;)

The funny thing is this month I have had four people come to me for healing, and I am not sure what to make of it...

I find myself going back to my native American roots and aching for a deeper connection to purpose...and the people coming to me are seeking the same...it is amazing...I like it but again I dont know what to make of it...

I find my self saying this three word prayer: Aho Mitakuye Oyasin, I love this prayer, and I just wanted to share it because it's beauty and truth, to any that desire beauty and truth today....

Mitakuye Oyasin is a Lakota Sioux prayer. The phrase translates as "all my relatives," "we are all related," or "all my relations." It is a prayer of oneness and harmony with all forms of life: other people, animals, birds, insects, trees and plants, and even rocks, rivers, mountains and valleys.

Aho Mitakuye Oyasin....All my relations. I honor you in this circle of life with me today. I am grateful for this opportunity to acknowledge you in this prayer....

To the Creator, for the ultimate gift of life, I thank you.

To the mineral nation that has built and maintained my bones and all foundations of life experience, I thank you.

To the plant nation that sustains my organs and body and gives me healing herbs for sickness, I thank you.

To the animal nation that feeds me from your own flesh and offers your loyal companionship in this walk of life, I thank you.

To the human nation that shares my path as a soul upon the sacred wheel of Earthly life, I thank you.

To the Spirit nation that guides me invisibly through the ups and downs of life and for carrying the torch of light through the Ages. I thank you.

To the Four Winds of Change and Growth, I thank you.

You are all my relations, my relatives, without whom I would not live. We are in the circle of life together, co-existing, co-dependent, co-creating our destiny. One, not more important than the other. One nation evolving from the other and yet each dependent upon the one above and the one below. All of us a part of the Great Mystery.

Thank you for this Life.